Powerless
Man I had the worst dream last night… I guess you could call it a nightmare. It wasn’t exactly “scary” per say or anything like that… but most definitely frightening. You know the cool little thing people do where you’re laying on your back and you hop to your feet using the momentum from your legs and arching your back to power through with your stomach? Yeah well I can do that with no troubles, learned it on the Bales trampoline, and perfected it over 5 years of wrestling. Well most people do it wrong, they use their arms to push off the ground instead of using stomach/back muscles because frankly the average American is majorly lacking in stomach/back strength… So all I really remember about the dream is that I was in a large group of people and we were all sitting on the floor, one of the people was someone who knew me pretty good… I think it was Tiana but not exactly sure because I never saw them. Everyone was wearing white shirts, and white pants, the only thing that would differentiate you from the others is how you acted because for some reason you couldn’t see peoples faces either. In the group of people to my right was a girl I liked, and to my left was Tiana… well I wasn’t getting anywhere impressing the girl I liked… it seemed she liked me back but I wasn’t winning so to say. Tiana and I figured that it was because we were all basically sheep, and you all know I love to stand out in a crowd doing something different than everyone else. When everyone started to get up to leave Tiana says “do that thing you do standing up from your back.” You know me, any chance to show off I take, especially when there is someone I like around. As the people are leaving around me I lay back and try… but it’s like my legs are weightless. When you’re kicking up you’ve got to use the weight of your legs to put all your body weight on your shoulders and thrust back with your stomach/back muscles to push yourself straight up (this is where most people cheat and use their arms). So with weightless legs I wasn’t going anywhere… after a couple of attempts I finally broke down and tried to push up with my arms like most people do… but I wasn’t strong enough. I ustacould do push ups in a handstand (against the wall of course) and I can’t get myself lifted in the air with a little momentum? Something was wrong, so I tried again… still nothing… by this time everyone had cleared out of the room, but I was left lying on the ground powerless to get up.
We really are weak aren’t we? I mean we get cocky and arrogant doing all this stuff by ourselves and think that we can do so much… but in reality nothing is possible on our own. I have a lot of troubles with thinking I can do everything on my own. That’s one of my biggest failures… If I get the time tomorrow to record I’ll finish my voice blog which has a few things in there that would make this a little more understandable what I would like to get into… but since I don’t have it up right now I won’t. But this does bring me to another point… I’m so faithless and lazy… why does God still give me chances? Why does he still support me in my endeavors? It really doesn’t make sense to me at all.